Perfectly Imperfect
"a combination of qualities, such as shape, colour, or form, that pleases the aesthetic senses, especially the sight."
Do we really define the beauty of a person by just their outward appearance? I can honestly say, that yes, what pleases the eyes has a major part in how you perceive a person. But, it doesn't matter that much in the overall picture of what I believe is beautiful. See, we all have different opinions on what beauty is! And that's the...beauty of it!
Soul
Your soul is the core of you, the infinite, eternal and immaterial part of what makes you, you. This is where you receive the whispers of God, Creator and Universe. When you tune in to those messages from the deepest part of you, the connection between you and your purpose and dreams have no other option but to respond.
Now, this is where things get very interesting. You ultimately have a choice in your response. The Creator never overrides your free will. So, do you start your soul journey or not? I can honestly say, that journey is the hardest one you will ever make. It requires you to dig deep into the darkest most fearful and frightening chambers of your being. My experience of this darkness started a few months after I went for a six hour spiritual healing session, and continued and is still in process to this day.
The point I am trying to make here is just one simple sentence.
The moment you start consciously living from that secret place, your perception of beauty changes.
Created to love
You start seeing people in a different light, make allowances for their differences, you have more compassion than you ever thought possible and the love you discover for yourself CANNOT be contained. It invariably spills out of those cracks of your perfectly imperfect self into your actions, your words and your thoughts.
Your true value is how you see yourself. No one's opinion of you should be allowed to change that fact. "I belong to myself first before anyone else."
Your core value, the hidden gems you were given to discover, in my opinion, lies in your soul. You have all the answers within you. Some people go through life, never living their dreams and purpose, never being who they were created to be, and to me, this fact is absolutely heartbreaking. It upsets me more than any war, disaster or tragedy.
The funeral
Sadly enough it took me years and several casualties of "war" to find myself.
I found myself more than once on my knees, questioning, crying uncontrollably from my soul, praying to whomever was listening. It hurts like hell to shed that cocoon of comfort.
And in those moments of agony within darkness you find shards of light, too beautiful in their brilliance...your butterfly soul emerges, and the realization that those glittering pieces, piercing the inky black sorrow is you.
The deep cries out to the deep,
waking hours bleeding into a nightmare,
trying so hard just to sleep.
Trembling, quivering from lack of oxygen,
it's difficult to breathe.
Swimming through sorrow,
head underwater, reaching out for help,
but then you discover,
the only person you can rely on
is your beautiful broken self.
Save me, rescue me,
from this dark, hauntingly beautiful place.
God, I wish it didn't hurt so much,
but I hope to one day be,
the gem you designed and lovingly created,
the person I was meant to be.
©️ Irma Dixon
